I was a ball of nerves on Wednesday. I had read of many stories where women went in and there was no heartbeat, no development...nothing. And though I figured I had to have something going on due to my symptoms, you still just never knew. The drive to the hospital was spent praying for God to prepare my heart for whatever He had, and also thanking Him that Brad would be there with me!
We got right in with the tech and she had me lay down on the table, and then she squirted the warm gel on my stomach and begin moving the ultrasound wand (WHAT is it called??) over my belly. She didn't say anything immediately but asked me, "Have you been having irregular periods?" and I told her yes, wondering where she could be going with it. But she didn't go anywhere with it, thank God, cause then she turned the screen towards me and said, "There's your little peanut!"
|See how it looks like there is a little head pointing down? That is actually the yolk sac, where the embryo/baby gets its nutrition from right now. The baby itself is the little peanut-shaped thing above the yolk sac.|
And there it was, indeed our little peanut, up on the screen. Then she pointed out the amazing thing of all, the little itty bitty heartbeat flickering away! It was just so nuts to see this little flashing thing inside of my belly, still makes me shake my head to think about it. She said the heartbeat measured at 152bpm, which also made me happy to hear there was such a strong little heart in there.
The best news came the following day when I got a call from my doctor saying that my ultrasound looked awesome and that my hemorrhage had completely gone away. What an answer to prayer!
Since we all like belly pics and stats....
|This was taken at what I thought was 5 weeks, but really was a little over 4...so, nothing to see here :)|
Overall, I have just been so thankful for this incredible blessing. Every now and then I'll be sitting by myself and whether it's the hormones or just being completely humbled by God, I will start crying when I think about how thankful I am for this little miracle. I am all too aware that I am still so very early and anything could still happen, but I am truly learning so much about myself and God's goodness through this amazing experience. I am starting to let myself feel excited for the possibility of this pregnancy and little baby, and while it does scare me at times to be hopeful and excited in case something does happen, I would not trade those moments of excitement for anything....because those moments are honestly when I'm the most grateful and thankful to God for giving me this gift!